One of my October goals was to do the Artist’s way course book week by week and post a reflection of the past week/check in on the blog every Sunday! Here are my reflections after completing week one.
This week’s focus was on recovering a sense of safety. Julia Cameron talks about how important it is to know that as artists we need to have support, and any negative beliefs or people who doubted us when we were children could impact us as adult artists. The work this week was to focus on undoing these negative beliefs.
Something this week has already brought up for me is the feeling of not doing enough. I feel like I didn’t fully explore what my childhood monsters were that doubted my artistic dreams, or fully spend enough time exploring these topics. Maybe I need to truly give it an hour each day to see what can come up. Or maybe I need to remember and trust that I am doing enough, and this course is my own and whatever I need to get out of it, I will get out of it.
I need to be proud of myself that I did complete my morning pages everyday this week and I did take the time for myself to do an artist date and I spent 10-15 minutes after my pages to focus on the lesson of the week. Trust that, whatever you can give, is enough.
The non-negotiable part of the twelve week course is starting every morning with your morning pages which are 3 pages of written stream-of-consciousness for the first thing you do when you wake up.
I completed my morning pages every single morning and boy have they made such a difference in my life!
When I tried to do this course before, it took me 30 minutes to complete, but I think now I’m allowing myself to pause/think less and just write, write write, and it’s only been taking me 20 minutes.
I find that instead of reaching for my phone first thing in the morning, I reach for my notebook and I have time to just write and process any dreams I had, things that are bothering me lately, or emotions that are coming up, and it gives me the time and space to think about what goals I have for the day and what would make it feel like a great day.
Not reaching for my phone has made a big difference in my just overall mental health so I’m not bombarded with technology first thing in the morning.
It also wakes me up faster and even if at the beginning I feel groggy, by the end of the third page I feel refreshed, creative, and inspired.
Doing these morning pages every day has also encouraged me to meditate because I’m already in that open and creative state.
It truly feels like a “brain dump”. I noticed myself on Saturday morning not wanting to do my morning pages because I was with my partner and I thought, “Well, I don’t have to do them on the weekends”, or “I should be alone when I write them,” but with the encouragement and support of my partner I was able to complete them and really make sure that no matter where you are or who you’re with, they are non-negotiable.
The other core task of the entire course is taking yourself on an artist date. It is essentially time you put aside each week to spend time to nurture you and your artist and you are and your artists, alone.
I’m actually currently on my artist date. I planned this Sunday for a while because I wanted it to be my “staycation” and just have the whole day to myself to do whatever I want. I’m currently at a cute coffee shop I’ve been wanting to go to for awhile and plan to write, read, take myself out to lunch, and then later go get my haircut.
Carving in alone time is so important for me and although I usually spend weekends either traveling or with my partner, I knew I needed a day just for me, and luckily my partner is very supportive of that.
At the end of each week, the book provides a bunch of writing tasks. I thought it would be fun to pick one and post it on the blog each week.
Write down five imaginary lives. If you had five other lives to lead, what would you do in each of them?
- I would be a yoga teacher and a writer and live in a cabin in the woods amongst fairies and ferns.
- I would live in a beach shack and surf every single morning and eat a lot of fruit and drink coconut water out of coconuts and never wear shoes.
- I would be a digital nomad who travels all around the world and interviews people from every single country and create performance art based off those interviews.
- I would join the Peace Corps and dedicate my life to helping impoverished women/people all over the world and heal them through song and art.
- I would be a pop star like Hannah Montana status (living the best of both worlds lol) and live a bougie lifestyle performing to crowds and have a lot of money and be a supahstar.
Thanks for reading week one! My goal for week two is to obvi do my morning pages everyday, do my artist date, AND spend a little more time diving into the lessons and the “focus” of the week to feel like I really covered that week and felt like I “did enough”.